:)

Dear All,

i love you:)
and happy green days
and i enjoyed ÇİYU a lot today!
gotta work trigonometry now:)

Cheers!!

End of a challange!

Dear All,

As you all know, today was the beginning of a new month. That means something to me. i start eating meat today.

i ll postpone drawing my sustainability balance sheet to the end of August. But i can t help writing this at least: the very first challange Shopping-Free September was the best one. i have done so well that i still don t buy any cloths or accessories. i am proud but more than that, i believe i even can extend it to the next year. i ll see and you ll definitely read!

Unfortunately others were not as lucky as september, maybe not easy as the first one. Being a vegeterian will be among my challanges again. i believe i ll fail better next time. Yes, i am optimistic about that! Especially after Ezgi and her ideal vegan BF, TM,will be here, i am sure i at least think more and deeper about being vegi. Again Lets see!

Dear all, today was a relaxing day. i mean tense but relaxing at the same time. i feel more comfortable about being in UK. i guess seeing something around the corner helped.

Reasons to be happy:

1) My beloved Bet&Bet and my lovely Drk! That was an amazing dinner!
2) My Sis! i am coming soooo sooooonn! Missed you! (Not missing but having a sister like mine... legend! )
3) Roomy!!!!! Thanks for the whole year:)

Cheers!!

What is like being a Leader?

Dear All,

i am extremely angry! Today, there was a seminer about leadership. This time guest speaker was a verrrry famous "leader" who doesn t follow other sheeps.

He started to talk pretty normal. We are supposed not to be on the same way which mainstream people choose to follow. Our families expect from us to be the "normal" one. There are not so many leaders. These are not among the words which drove me crazy even though i don t totally agree with what he said. Sorry "leader", but i don t want to believe that everybody else is just someone and i am the one and only who solves all problems. i don t want to be the doer opposing everyone. Besides, if you define "leader" who lead the "sheeps", then i think there is a problem. i can list my all other objections but those were still acceptible. i mean, sometimes it even helps to reassure yourself. i am shameful to accept that but reassurance is a necessity.

However, leadership does not give right to offense people. There was a girl who covered her head. He first gazed at her and asked if she covered her head because of religious reasons. The girl answered, yes, faith. Then he said, he didn t believe that there is any religion which requires that, but stupidity. Then he started bullying her asking what religion is and why she believes. C'mon Leader! Seriously?

No dears, this is not the end. he continued very sure, he knew that he came here only for one person maybe 2 if he was lucky. So, others who even doesn t question can leave. C'mon Leader! Seriously?

i don t know what to say about that. i agree people should question and don t believe every word they hear. But, does knowing "questioning is important" give right to humiliate people? He could just finish talking, and may ask her in private if he really wants to encourage her to question. He didn t change neither that girl's nor other people's life in a better way. i don t know he created any miracle after this chat. 'cos, i and my friend left the room as well as the girl.

Reasons to be happy:

1) Congratulations to me! i am not a LEADER!
2) i am grateful i don t have sheeps to lead but friends and family! No question, i am lucky!
3) i gained extra 2 hours not attending that seminar:)

Cheers!!

Doing good:)

Dear All,

i am proud to say i was very successful to handle being vegeterian.
However, i m happy seeing this month is ending soon. Feeling a bit unmannered though...

You know things can change as well as people. For instance, last time i talked to my EZ, she confessed she became a total vegeterian. So bye bye "kebap" and related chit chats. When i talked to her, seems like nothing can be more meaningful than being vegi.
So what is wrong with me? Why can t i still be a vegi? Should i read the same book "Eating Animals"?

i guess, instead of reading that, i ll first watch this. She adviced me not to watch it if i want to eat meat soon. i don t know if it ll help, but lets see.

i am dizzy these days. Let s hope it s temporary.

Cheers!

PS: Mum, i m fiinnee:)

Quarter Life Crisis

Dear All,

This is a pretty personal post but i don t think that you are reading this blog because you want to hear something about environment. If so, thank you but probably this post would not be your interest. (But you still can continue to read my so-called quarter life crisis) If not, you can keep reading because even i start writing up my quarter life crisis, it may end with happy end.

As you know i m going hopefully to UK next year for my master which i was dying to be accepted at the beginning... then dying to get a scholarship. And now, seems like i did it. And that brings us to the point where i question myself about my capabilities.
was i like this before or did it just start with the university?

Normally, compare to some very precious people, i don t think too much. But, compare to some, i think extremely a lot. Not always about important things. Actually rarely about them. Anyways, whenever i start thinking like that, it goes to the point i find myself questioning what is good, important, bad, what is happiness... God, even the philosophers could not get any answers to those, who am i to find the answers?
Should it be about finding answers btw?

Whatever, i think its just today s thoughts. Probably tomorrow i ll feel like a totally different person with a real smile on my face.

But how come i feel soooo tired that i want to retire before start working? Will i find something sooo matching with me? my interests? Shouldn t these be the questions of 17-year-old me?

Wish me luck people! i need this!

Cheers!

PS: My very dear JOY wrote something very joyful and helpful! Believe me better than this post!

Yes, we BAN! by RTE

Dear All,

On Sunday, we(i mean around 20.000 people) walked in Taksim. Not because the weather was perfect to be out, not because we like spending time with friends and not even because to have sooo delicious Italian icecream, BUT there was a demonstration for free internet use!

By saying Free, i mean, not banned! As the goverment wants to pass a law in August, they are planning to "protect" the kids by banning some websites. However, nobody knows which websites they ban.It can be any social networking websites, youtube, blogs. Once you want to find a "harmful" content in a website, you definitely can. Reshaping "harmful" is easy. Beyond that, you may be punished if you come with a solution for yourself, like changing DNS or using some breaker websites.

Sounds like 1984, right?

i know that is sooo unrelated to being vegeterian(i am still into it ,btw!), but i couldn't stop writing it.

Lessons to be learned:

1) Life is weird.
2) and annoying sometimes...
3) Knowing that it is the life itself does make it easier! You learn how to live with that. No big dissappointment:D

Cheers!!

Note from EZ! & Heysır's B.day:)

Dear All,

After i extended my challenge, EZ told me not to. You know EZ, right? Besides being my soooooooo close friend(wish there was stronger word than friend!), her boyfriend and she were my inspiration to be vegeterian this month. However, she suggested me instead of cutting meat consuption that sharp, better to eat meat once in a week or maybe twice.

She was right to advice that 'cos in my diet, i should replace my protein source with something else. Normally, if i decided to be total vegeterian or vegan(OMG, impossible in Turkey and unfortunately i can t think of a world without cheese:S), i would definitely need help from a dietician or from another vegeterian/vegan. i know it is totally different state of mind and body.

i am not an expert but of course i learned some basics. That is why i cooked letil and chickpea last week. Sorry My Vegan Friends, but i increased my dairy consumption as well. Besides, i hope all effort that i showed for the last 22 years will help me to be allright:P

Reasons to be happy:

1) Today is B.day of Heysır! Can't wait to celebrate in one hour!!
2) i m doing fine with my challenge and i have friends who care! (Mum still doesn t know!)
3) Only a month to be sooo free! Summer, i miss you:))

Cheers!